Paroles de Front Row
do you go to the dungeon to find out how to make peace with your days
in the dungeon writing a letter to you didn't make me feel any more
peaceful than how I felt when we weren't speaking because I didn't
cop to what I did. I can't love you because we're supposed to have
professional boundaries. i'd like you to be schooled and in awe as
though you were kissed by god full on the lips. i'm in the front row
the front row with popcorn I get to see you see you close up i'm too
tired to recount the unpleasantries one by one one minute I want to
banish you the next I want to be on a deserted island with you along
with my three favorite cd's ambivalent yet in your bed we've yet to
acknowledge what really happened
slid into the ditch I have this overwhelming loss of ambition we said
let's name thirty good reasons why we shouldn't be together I started
by saying things like "you smoke" "you live in new jersey [too far]"
you started saying things like "you belong to the world" all of which
could have been easily refuted but the conversation was hypothetical I
am totally short of breath for you why can't you shut your stuff
off..... i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn I get to see
you see you close up and I laughed until my lungs hurt I love how you
bust my chops you don't always feel seen sometimes you feel erasable
unfortunately I cannot reciprocate in my current state I think we
should be careful of how much time we spend together
...for a while while i'm speaking you know how much you hate to be
interrupted maybe spend some time alone fill up your proverbial cup
so that it doesn't always have to be about you i've been wanting your
undivided attention I like the fact that you're nothing like me are
you not burdened by the lack of perspective people have of your
charmed life [seemingly]? i'm in the front row the front row with
popcorn I get to see you see you close up you never meant to be
ungrateful nor held up to be whipped or wept for certainly not
analysed prodded at more ways than one apparently you've been
misrepresented dealing with the concept of arrows being slung towards
your outrageous fortune
hey i'm not mad at you guardian i'm mad at myself for spending so
much time with you and your jeckyl and hydeness i'm glad i
figuratively slpped you on the wrist you laughed a wicked laugh and
said "come here let me clip your wings!"[i know he's blood but you
can still turn him away you don't owe anything] "raise the roof" he
yelled "yeah raise the roof!" I yelled back. [unfortunately you
needed a health scare to reprioritize]. no thanks to the soap box.
having me rile against them won't make an ounce of difference......
i'm in the front row the front row with popcorn I get to see you see
you close up oh the things i've done for you many a sitch a friend a
man's been left for you oh the books i've read for you the tongues
i've bitten for you many a new city for you many a risk taken for you
[not a single regret].